just another ordinary story

2010-03-03T22:18:00.001+08:00

trust issues? :O

hahahahahah

2009-11-26T22:56:00.003+08:00

been a long time since i posted anything here...

almost a month, right?

haiz..
it's almost like a routine for me to
go surf facebook
check the forum
then check my emails

and then slack...
like slack...

you don't even know why
you're doing it, or what are
you actually doing. but
you're just doing it.

damn...

i like russian music.
i mean classical music.
like Tchaikovsky
or Rachmaninoff
or Shostakovich.

i like symphony no. 6
by Tchaikovsky.
it's like a drug that you go to
when you're feeling down.
or when you feel there's a
hole in your heart. and you
could not locate where it came from
or why is it doing there, or why
was there even a hole in the first place.

and it's even more amazing,
that you don't even know how that music helps
but it heals that empy space in your heart,
urging you to go on, and on and on.
it's useless to put it down to words.

and then there's mahler.
his symphonies are like
long.
way long.
i mean you could play the 1st movt,
go make coffee, have your breakfast
and come back and you'll still be in time
to catch the repeat of the exposition.
haha.

but still his music being so long,
has a lot of development,
which is really interesting and nice.
i mean it's like watching a really really long movie,
or drama, like taiwanese draggy dramas,
and discovering all the characterisation,
all the different facets of that subject.
fully exploited.

it's like i have lost touch...

but here's a song.
it's just interesting.
classical with pop.

Penguin Cafe Orchestra - The sound of someone you love who's going away and it doesn't matter.

long title.
but fitting.
damn.
all the best.

2009-10-26T23:01:00.002+08:00

comes a point where u start looking back
and realise some of the things you've done
is not just stupid, but irrational.

and you don't even know why you do it.
it's like it's supposed to happen lah.
like the "lah" at the end of the sentence.

somehow...
mainsteam is subjective

nice song. screw that intro to the vid though...

Contradiction - Sonic Syndicate

I used to be someone
But I grew to be something that I'm not
It feels like I'm cornered
By everything that you really want
Why are we here in this same old room

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will
It cannot end like this
We still have a long way to go

It is kind of hard
To look back on all the good times
And realise nothing
Will ever be like it used to be

I wish you were someone I can only disengage
You opend a lot of doors in me but just closed a few
You're both the poison and the antidote
Is my best not good enough for you?

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will
It cannot end like this
We still have a long way to go

They didn't build Rome in a day
We just need to ride out this storm
(Ride out this storm)

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will
It cannot end like this
We still have a long way to go

2009-10-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

haiz...
Contradiction - Sonic Syndicate

I used to be someone
But I grew to be something that I'm not
It feels like I'm cornered
By everything that you really want
Why are we here in this same old room

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will
It cannot end like this
We still have a long way to go

It is kind of hard
To look back on all the good times
And realise nothing
Will ever be like it used to be

I wish you were someone I can only disengage
You opend a lot of doors in me but just closed a few
You're both the poison and the antidote
Is my best not good enough for you?

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will
It cannot end like this
We still have a long way to go

They didn't build Rome in a day
We just need to ride out this storm
(Ride out this storm)

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will

We stand here, with damaged hope
But still we carry on
We both know and always will
It cannot end like this
We still have a long way to go

i must say the lyrics are nice
PW

2009-10-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

this, or this?

Sonata Tragica by Medtner
or
Sonata No.4 by Scriabin

haiz...
don't fall
please
stand up
but why?

2009-09-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

probably explains why i admire him so.=D

2009-09-12T14:26:00.002+08:00

we are all insignificant, when compared against time.

In Flames - The Chosen Pessimist

Tell me which side I'm on
Approaching constant failure
Tell me which side I'm on
(Who is friend or foe?)
Approaching constant failure

Between love and hate
Which path to follow?
How can I keep balance in this race?
Come faith, I'm dying (slowly)

In many ways I'm the burden that divides us from the light
In many ways you're the halo that keeps my spirit alive

Temptation
Play the good or evil part
With me, you evoke the dark
Erase the free will and watch me heal

Tell me which side I'm on
Approaching constant failure

Between love and hate
Which path to follow?
How can I keep balance in this race?
Come faith, I'm dying...

Amused by the trials and tribulations
If I survive I fly from here
But as the chosen pessimist

I carve my name in stone
I carve my name in stone

Amused by the trials and tribulations
If I survive I fly from here

How can I keep balance in this race?
Come faith I'm dying...

i need a break

2009-09-10T21:37:00.003+08:00

for a moment, i thought i forgot my password.

but still,
Beethoven sonatas are the bomb man!

No. 27

17 more days to Promos,
got to work hard.
well...
it's time i really really study
i mean like
it's been a long long time since
i last sat down in front of my desk
and really revise and clear doubts
of what i'm doing.

blegh

holidays are coming to an end
and i must say
i studied more this holidays
than i did the last.
and it's quite ironic.

2009-09-09T00:47:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating for a long time...

why?
lol

2009-08-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

Don't Stop Believing - Journey

Just a small town girl, livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

(chorus)
Dont stop believin
Hold on to the feelin
Streetlight people

one of the rare rare songs where the chorus appears right at the end.
nice song, even nicer band.

2009-08-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

lol it's funny how everytime i ask myself
" how am i ever gonna find the emotions needed to fulfill this task"

the emotion comes to me unexpectedly and unwillingly.

DAMNIT!

2009-07-30T19:47:00.002+08:00

some songs are just so nice and so true
it just keeps coming back at you...

life is short, so stand behind
the choices that you've made =]

Mudvayne - Death Blooms

Cold seems crippling lame meander through corridors
aroma's thick with age mark off the day reflections of
my life are fading

Pull me out of body, don't want it, don't want in,
Feeble, frail, and rotting descending I'm lost in
Structure that's collapsing don't want it,
Cast into maker, take the body, don't want, it wants me

Past has found its place salvation is no more will god
accept my peace bleached will pardon me reflections of
my life are fading
Pull me out of body don't want it, don't want in,
Feeble, frail, and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing don't want it
Cast into maker take the body don't want it wants me

I just want to run
fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery

I'm sick and tired of embracing reflections of past
time receive me or cast me away, god please take me away
resistance futile suicidal ideas I will crucify my own
being satisfy
selfish needs fuck the deities justify my own right to
what's waiting for me

On the other side the time has come lock and load I'm
coming I'm, coming, I'm coming, I'm coming home

Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble, frail, and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body don't want it wants in,
Pull me out of body don't want it don't want in,
Feeble, frail, and rotting descending I'm lost in,
A structure that's collapsing descending don't want it,
Maker take the body don't want it wants me

I just want to run
fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery
Darkness overcomes, soul soars to the other plain
Existence past the door I sail through Purgatory's bay

I asked a god for poison cradle me
sown to my dreams, soul searching
death blossoms where clouds lie over me
held in god's hands
Death blooming

Dark for fear of failure... an inner gloom as wide as an
eye and fermenting
Roiling hate... death grip in my veins
unveiling rancid
petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a
blink and a tear
...Death blooms.

2009-07-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

and with such beautiful music
to accompany you at night
you fell asleep without
even realising.
that the music has stop

a long time ago.

and now it seems
so silent
almost as though
it's peaceful
but still you
realised that
without the music
you've become hollow...

why?
does something else exist...
in this frozen heart?

Brahms

Opus III is coming soon,
1st piano recital
a public one

honestly?
fuck recitals

i would rather play for
a few good friends of mine
than to play for many
people whom i've no idea
who or what, they are...

cry out loud
that part of me
although getting smaller
is getting louder and louder

just a few more days

2009-07-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

the year has passed quite quickly

either we quicken our foot steps
and hurry after it.

or we give in our best
to slow it down.

2009-07-26T21:34:00.002+08:00

the past is a great place
we shouldn't erase it,
neither should we reject it.

and neither should we become
prisoners to it...

move on
moving on
moved on

Europe - I'll cry for you

never dreamed that i could fall
but something come over me
now i'm sitting staring at the wall
afraid for my sanity

the sound of your voice
the touch of your skin
is haunting me
i'm still trying to come to my senses
but i can't look back
so i'm taking my chances

i wanna give you my heart
give you my soul
i wanna lay in your arms
never let go
don't want to live my life without you
but i know when you're gone.....
like a fire needs a spark
like a fool in the dark
honey i'll cry for you

wondering why i'm running scared
from what i believe in
i know that love is just another word
to say what i'm feeling
for once in my life the future is mine
it's calling me
i've been searching so long for an answer
but it's to late now
so i'm taking my chances

i wanna give you my heart
give you my soul
i wanna lay in your arms
never let go
don't want to live my life without you
but i know when you're gone.....
like a fire needs a spark
like a fool in the dark
honey i'll cry for you

i wanna give you my heart
cry for you
i wanna lay in your arms
honey i'll cry for you
i wanna give you my heart
cry for you
i wanna lay in your arms
don't make me cry for you

i've been searching for an answer
i'm wondering why i'm running scared
honey i'll cry for you
everyday

seriously, glam metal is one of the nicest
genre i ever listen to.

2009-07-22T20:25:00.001+08:00

dang...

In life we all have an unreachable dream, an unchangeable regret, an irreplaceable memory & an unforgettable love.

2009-07-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

and so to move on,
one has to give up

2009-07-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

i think it's really radical how we sustain our conversations...
hahaha

2009-07-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

finally found my bookmark...
it was under the CPU like all along...

2009-07-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

back to studying

2009-07-03T21:24:00.002+08:00

sometimes, things happen
things that make you
rethink about choices
made in the past.

and after re visiting,
it seems as though
at that point of time
at that instant,
your decisions
your choice
your opinions
were right,
were correct,
and everything's
alright.

but yet,
something
went terribly
wrong somehow
somewhere,
and, you know
it's nobody's
fault, not yours
not theirs.

as though...
it's only
natural
for things
to go wrong.

and you can't
stop things from
going wrong.

and for once
I, I have had
enough of games
of tuanting
teasing
playing around

it's time to stop
and take a step
back, and relook
so as to take a step
forward.

and it's definitely
better for you
to get emofied
and all fck'd up
with a reason
no matter how
personal or
screwed
the reason is

than to be
emofied and fck'd
up for no apparent
reason, with the
only reason
being you not
able to find
out about the
very reason

fuck the indirect talking,
screw it lah, and THIS
is not about the paper
i took today so yea...

MEW's a nice band
thanks timo for introducing=]=] =D

Eight flew over, One was destroyed
Halfway through flight there-to
Where will you go?
Falling down on the ground
Where will you go now?

Do you remember what made you fall?
And does it matter to you at all?
You wanna go, you wanna see
What lies could set you free
You wanna see, right?
You'll know this night

Halfway through flight there-to
Where will you go?
It's a nice day, i think
To wake up with you

You cannot see them when it is light
This is the reason we go at night
In the darkest flight of my career
I am made blue all through
On my dark descend I persevere
I am thinking of you

Half way through fly there-to
Where will you go?
Falling down on the ground
Where will you go now?
It's a nice way, i think
To wake up with you
A nice way
I'm separated from you

2009-07-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Wither - Dream Theater

Let it out, let it out
Feel the empty space
So insecure, find the words and let it out
Staring down, staring down
Nothing comes to mind
Find the place, turn the water into wine

But I feel I'm getting nowhere
And I'll never see the end

So I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear
I break down and let the story guide me

Turn it on, turn it on
Let the feelings flow
Close your eyes and see the ones you used to know
Open up, open up
Don't struggle to relate
Lure it out, help the memory escape

Still this barrenness consumes me
And I feel like giving up

So I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear
I break down and let the story guide me
I wither and give myself away

Like reflections on the page
The worlds which you create

I drown in hesitation, my words come crashing down
And all my best creations, burn into the ground
The thought of starting over, leaves me paralyzed
Tear it out again, another one that got away

Wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear

I wither and render myself helpless
I give in and everything is clear
I break down and let the story guide me
I wither and give myself away

Like reflections on the page
The worlds which you create

Let it out, let it out.

who cares if it sounds like DT or not...

2009-06-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

and I shall/will trust myself once more

2009-06-28T21:43:00.001+08:00

and soon after i regretted not listening LA lessons last year,
i regretted not listening to Econs this year.

damnit =[=[

2009-06-27T01:44:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wished that i had pay more attention to LA the last 2 years...
DAMNIT!

with every step forward,
we're more at risk of
breaking down, and
losing it all.

but we'll only know
if we had taken
that freaking
step forward.

it's better to
fail every now
and then, because,
with progression
comes setback
and by failling
you have show that
you have progressed.

2009-06-27T01:36:00.005+08:00

Note to self:
composers to listen to:

symphonies/ orchestral stuff

Mozart*
Haydn
Sibelius*
Ravel
Liszt
Thaichosky*
Berlioz*
Brahms
Shostakovich
Stravinsky
Scriabin*
Debussy

piano stuff

Bach
Liszt*
Mozart*
Ravel*
Debussy*
Sheonberg*
SCRIABIN!!!*
Scarlatti
Mendelssohn

Strings quartet stuff

Beethoveen*
Haydn

2009-06-21T21:33:00.002+08:00

hmms...

nice song...

Killing me, Killing you - Sentenced

Baby, have you seen, there is a snake in our paradise
A serpent that's wriggling between us
and freezing our feelings to ice

And with each drop of blood we bleed because of this
something so precious dies and it feels it really is...

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Darling, do you feel, there is a storm coming our way
The burning light between us is already starting to fade
The fire in our hearts is smothered by the rain
and the crimson flame of passion turns into something gray

And with each drop of blood our shattered hearts ever bleed
something so precious dies and is lost eternally

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Each teardrop from your eyes
makes something inside me die
Each of these days that draws us apart
takes a piece from my, takes a piece from my heart

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love
and chase the storm away
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love
and haunt the demons away

Killing Me Killing You
Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love
and chase the snake away
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love
and haunt the serpent away

i like the video...

like how i like their vid for "no one there"

2009-06-20T01:14:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i blogged.

must save this dying space...

oh well, not that i like this particular version or wad
but just wanna post this song.

i should start mugggin,
and put aside my guitar
for the time being
and for nuts,
i just went to change
the strings

so now i'll be having
conflicts with meself
over whether i should
play it or not

2009-06-13T20:36:00.004+08:00

woots

with such music at night,
you don't have to sleep.

or it's because
you don't want to sleep?

but still, you have to,
and thus the music ends.

2009-06-11T02:31:00.000+08:00

somethings ah, you just can't force lah.
and sometimes ah, when you just don't know what to say,
cause saying it will make it sound so duh.

something like, " the sun is bright"
or " the sea is big"

something like that.

2009-06-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

sometimes you don't feel like talking,
not cause you don't want to,
or you don't wish to,
or that you don't like who
you're talking to.

it's just that sometimes
you feel, after saying
something, something of great
importance to your heart,
or your soul, you feel
that you don't feel it
anymore.

like as though,
by saying it,
you're letting it go,
and you know,
sometimes, you don't
want to let things go.

because you know
things can go on
and new things
can grow
out of what
has been grown.

and because
you want to feel
feel that something
that sort of shows
that you're still
alive and not
part of an
illusion.

but keeping things
inside of you
like a bottle
will not help
because you know
someday,
somehow,
somewhy,
it'll be opened

and if there's
just too much being
bottled up,
everything will
just spill out
instantly,
automatically,
logically,
and it'll just
be too much,
too much, for
anyone to get
what you feel
what you say
what you think.

but despite all your wants,
your needs, your desires,
you know in this world,
things are going to go
against you,

not because you're
right and they
are wrong,
or they being
right and you
being wrong,
but because
in actual fact
there's no
right or wrong.

but still despite all those
negative happenings
occurring around you,
as though it's taking
over your world,

you should be living
for that small little
good thing right there,
and not forsaking
anything, or everything
with the thought
of ending it all.

no clue as to why those words came out,
with me not understanding half of what's
being written after re-reading,
still, it's the way i want it,
to have it written down,
as though engraved into something,
because, i don't want to let it out.
i still want to feel.

but what?

2009-06-01T01:56:00.002+08:00

home
house
house
home
home
home
house
house
home
house
home
home
house
house
house
home
house
home

2009-05-30T00:37:00.001+08:00

so concert has ended and it's time for me to catch up
with all my homework that has been undone
and all my tutorials and lecture notes that are blank.

running notes.

2009-05-21T22:38:00.001+08:00

My Dying Bride - For my fallen angel

As I draw up my breath,
And silver fills my eyes.
I kiss her still,
For she will never rise.

On my weak body,
Lays her dying hand.
Through those meadows of Heaven,
Where we ran.

Like a thief in the night,
The wind blows so light.
It wars with my tears,
That won't dry for many years.

"Love's golden arrow
At her should have fled,
And not Death's ebon dart
To strike her dead."

and thus it ends.

2009-05-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

do i care?
or do i care not?

do i even care if i care?

2009-05-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

beautiful...

the kind of strat i want.
HA.

2k,
i'll give myself 5 years.

here goes...

-_-!!!

the front is falling off.

2009-05-10T23:48:00.002+08:00

i rather know,
i'm going all wrong,
than to know,
i'm not going
anywhere at all

so where am i
in this spectrum?
for all i know is
that i'm not moving
forward at all.

2009-05-09T17:50:00.001+08:00

and i still have yet to blog about SYF.

maybe i'm procastinating,
mabye i jsut want to forget about it.

but well, i'm now over it.
after what mr sim said during music.
kind of make sense anyway.

just hope that this month
will be good.
in many ways.

2009-05-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

Explosions in the sky - Your hand in mine

A glimpse into your eyes
A new certainty
A more serious love
Our future together
Your heart in mine
Time spent in eternity
Eternity is not forever
Bittersweet rememberance
Together in eternity
I'll never forget
Your hand in mine.

interesting...
POST ROCK FTW!!!

2009-05-06T21:50:00.002+08:00

wake up...

hello?
is there anybody in there?

oh well...

LUNAR NODE!!!!!

2009-05-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

when u know nothing,
u feel stress.
but when u know something,
u'll feel depressed.

2009-05-03T22:37:00.001+08:00

oh well...

back to studying

2009-05-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

Versus Terminus - In Flames

When all is said and done
We know what's right, what's wrong
But does it matter then
when all is said and done?

When all is dead and gone
We know who lost, who won
But does it matter then
when all is dead and gone?

See everything go
End of all things
The life that we know
Shift your point of view
You've been warned
This one-way ticket is for you

When all the lights go out
We'll know what life's about
But does it matter then
When all the lights go out?

When all the laughter dies
We'll see nothingness and realize
But does it matter then
When all the laughter dies?

See everything go
End of all things
The life that we know
Shift your point of view
You've been warned
This one-way ticket is for you

When all the laughter dies
We'll see nothings and realize
But does it matter then
When all the laughter dies?

See everything go
End of all things
The life that we know
Shift your point of view
You've been warned
This one-way ticket is for you

alright, so start living in the now and stop overanalysing everything that has happened( both good and bad).

and damn, this song just sort of affirms me even more that the album is about the struggle with religion...

2009-05-01T20:43:00.001+08:00

empty...

2009-05-01T00:37:00.001+08:00

somehow,
letting things out,
and letting things go,
makes u feel better off.

somewhat though....

"We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day"

2009-04-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

and i have yet to blog about SYF,
and the implications of it,
of the months to come,
of the journey to go.

maybe it's me,
that i'm too emotional,
to prune to attacks
by emotions,
being too senstive,
in fact, overly sensitive
to it.

and maybe it's my lack,
of will power.
if so,
why am i the last to cry,
after holding back for so long?

there are many things in life that can't be explained...
haiiz...

enuff, i'll blog about it another day, when i'm more composed.
it's just that SYF cause so many things to happen in such a short time,
you don't even know where it started, and neither do u know where it ends,
...

because you don't want it to end,
but still, it will...

u there?

2009-04-29T19:05:00.004+08:00

Comforting sounds - Mew
I don't feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make.
I don't feel alright because you make promises that you break.
Into your house, why don't we share our solitude?
Nothing is pure anymore but solitude.
It's hard to make sense, feels as if I'm sensing you through a lens.
If someone else comes, I'd just sit here listening to the drums.
Previously I never called it solitude.
And probably you know all the dirty shows I've put on.
Blunted and exhausted like anyone.
Honestly I tried to avoid it.
Honestly.
Back when we were kids, we would always know when to stop.
And now all the good kids are messing up.
Nobody has gained or accomplished anything.

argh, the lyrics probably have no fuck to what i'm feeling now,
but still, the music, argh...

and yes, the video doesn't do the cd recording justice...
like how many things in life weren't treated with...

a wonderful pick up to the climax,
treated with discretion with care and with passion
conscious yet drowning in emotions,
and yet, all these to end?
as quickily as it started,
but yet,
as wonderfully as it started...

2009-04-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

passion made people do crazy things,
and amongst those crazy things,
are many many little great things.

things that suprises us,
things that spurs us on,
thins that well,
will stay as things,
and things to come.

2009-04-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

thanks.

what more can i ask?

quoted this before,
but let me quote it again

"But I know as we go round and round
Though endings are never ever happy
It's the happy moments along the way
That in the end
Make it...ok..."

and yes, how will i able to forget this

" we know sometimes we get caught up
in our troubles and our problems
and that life sort of... slip away,
and life is precious, all of life.
and one must try to take in
as much as possible,
until the last moment,
and i still don't believe
there's any end to it"

2009-04-27T00:52:00.001+08:00

rereading ur blog is a nice way to remind urself of what has happened.

and so does looking at jamming videos...

yea i still have yet ot upload them...
although they're real shitty
a vcd would be better?

2009-04-25T19:40:00.004+08:00

fate or coincidence?

let's just continuing
pretending that it's alright...
cause after all,
we're all living in this
never ending masquerade
where unveiling the mask
yields yet another one
never knowing which is real
and never knowing
what is real

2009-04-23T19:50:00.002+08:00

comes a point.
when u have to make a choice

and when u don't

as each day pass,

it just seems

further

and

further

away...

it just gets more and more confusing as time

flies

by...

if u've experience how death is like
and lived to have 1 more try at life,
but then there comes this point
where you strongly believe everything
is headed for that death again

2009-04-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

DONT

ever fall back into that valley again,
you may not get back out this time.

ever give up at this crucial point
you are on the edge of returning

focus...

and then i could write no more...

2009-04-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

9 days to SYF.

hopefully after that i'll have time to study.
but for now,
SYF.

haiz...

off to study phy now.

2009-04-08T23:32:00.003+08:00

sometimes people go into something
expecting something out of it.
but then sometimes it turns out that
they didn't get the something
they expected out of it,
and instead something else was
taken away from them.

it's good to feel worried
because by feeling so,
it shows, that you have
a belief and a stake
in something and that
you have this fear that
that something could
not be achieved.
and by reacting to it,
you would be doing
something about it
and that you will
be a step closer.
to what you're doing.

are you worried now?

2009-04-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

so this is how it feels like to not do your homework without procastinating.
interesting.

and still econs is undone.

2009-04-01T23:12:00.002+08:00

had exco election today.
ha.

results are well.
ha.

good that i'm not.
ha.

just do well lah.
ha.

not that i don't.
ha.

want and not.
ha.

need and no.
ha.

serve your purpose.
haHA.

what am i writing?

had a treat from hai yesterday.
thanks hai!

i'll be a good student conductor i promise =]=] =D

just hopes well i can work with the new exco.
not like i couldn't just that i wouldn't
pessimistic and cynical me.
LOL!

and yes the feeling is getting back to me.
finally, that that has been long and lost
and hopefully (forcefully) forgotten,
somehow

you wouldn't want it to be back.
but then again, it'll serve its purpose
by coming back.
but why?

and how?

Once upon a time there was a man
With his eyes towards the moon
And he wonder to himself:
"Will love come soon?"
And does something else exist
In a frozen heart?
Except the thought of a
Very silent murder

2009-03-28T19:57:00.001+08:00

just had the most effective jamming session ever.
and suprisingly, i was playing drums.
LAWL!?!

2009-03-28T00:45:00.003+08:00

to be incline to make judgement on others is to be judgemental.
making judgement is the cognitive process of reaching a decision or drawing conclusions
cognition is hat which comes to be known, as through perception, reasoning, or intuition

where does assumption and impression ever come into play here?
intuition?

perhaps, intuition is the act or faculty of knowing or sensing without the use of rational processes
so base on it, i'm incline to make the judgement that intuition played a big part in the judgement.

so much so it's unjustified.
reason, the something that most people will listen to.
reason, reasoning, reasoned.

leading to this.
(can believe i'm writing this, forgive me john but...)
how can we win, when fools can be kings?

half the world is unfair to make this god damn fking world fair.
if being fair's what you want.
but will there ever be fairness?
is fairness what you want?
fairness, just what is that?

and yes, i'm pissed.
and i bladdy have
a right to be pissed.
as someone with a
stake in it. i have
the right.

Music and astronomy were two sides of the same coin. Astronomy was seen as the study of relationships between observable, permanent, external objects, and music was seen as the study of relationships between invisible, internal, hidden objects.

2009-03-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

Time, the most necessary, most difficult and THE principal thing in music.

time, works both ways, but like the hands of the clock going round and round, ultimately going nowhere.
play it wisely but not too slowly.

the angsty feeling just overwhelming when to thinking about the fact that despite knowing the leader is wrong, i still have to follow him whole-heartedly and faithfully, because only by doing that will there be a slim chance of making the wrong become a right.

for now, plot it carefully, like points on the graph.
that would make the actual drawing of it much easier
and much more effective.

beginning it is never easy.
slowly like a virus spreading across.

ARGH.

soon.

you know sometimes when u go into
something with a certain type of
expectation of certain people
and then it turns out that
it doesn't meet ur expectation
in anyway anyhow,
you just sort of feel out of place
and the only way to get out
of it is to do something
you don't really like, and
wish to do. but you still
go ahead. despite that
given fact, AND the added
fact that you may not
be correct and that you
will never know what is
correct because being
correct by itself, is
wrong.

thinking too much won't
lead you anywhere.
go ahead, do it.
i already am.

so it starts,
like how mahler's
symphony no. 6
starts with a boom.

HA.

out of place.

2009-03-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

ok screw multi effects.
chunk systems octavius squeezer here i come. =]=] =D

2009-03-14T23:15:00.002+08:00

to upgrade or to change?
haiz...

2009-03-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

so this is how it feels like
to be cheated of
your goddamn
perception of the world.

nevertheless
it's good experience
in that you've now
learnt what it takes
to rob you of it.
and now that you're
without it. you'll learn
to view the world
with a new, different
scope and way.

and it's sad,
that people do change
and most people
want to change,
cause no one can stop
it, since it occurs
both continously
and endlessly.
but purely
change alone
is never enough,
never right
and over
emphasized.

it's the direction
that matters
ultimately.

there's always
two sides of the
goddamn story
and no one said
that the two sides
oppose each other
the two sides only
differ in their
god damn
perspective.
and their god
damn
intention.

there isn't a need
to rock on dude
when especially
you haven't woke up
dude.

but still, this is
one god damn
side of the story.

and ultimately,
it's about
which side of the
story dominates
the other.

and not which
side is closer
to the truth.

cause it's
the justification
that outweighs
everything.

ultimately,
move on
in life
dude.

seriously

2009-03-01T23:24:00.001+08:00

finally saw the vid for my gig at the seniors prom.

brought back memories.
HAHA.

haiz...

2009-02-25T23:50:00.001+08:00

ok,

lol
i wonder why my password was resetted but well.
hope nothing goes wrong.

Dark for fear of failure... an inner gloom as wide as an
eye and fermenting
Roiling hate... death grip in my veins
unveiling rancid
petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a
blink and a tear
...Death blooms.

I just want to run
fly kites wrestle jump and play
Swim through waves that crash to shore memories in me
cocooned in misery

2009-02-23T00:11:00.003+08:00

thinking back
looking forward
cherishing the present.

why the rush?
slow down and listen
to the music
before the track
ends and a new
chapter begins.

your melted heart
let to my heartbreak
but even then, it has
gotten us both
heartstruck.

2009-02-20T22:45:00.001+08:00

" play something to show off and not this emo song"

2009-02-09T22:45:00.002+08:00

finally school's starting.

and i hope my ankle gets better.
and that at the meantime i'll be able
to train some arm muscles.
and that my weight will go down
and that my wallet will become bigger.

ha.
which direction are we heading towards.
which direction am I heading towards?

argh.
the safest thing to do when you don't know what to do is to do nothing.
afterall if you do nothing, only nothing can go wrong right?

2009-02-05T22:19:00.002+08:00

so i've to be on crutches for at least a month.
thanks to my ankle.
HA.

be grateful that it's not a ligament pull or tear.
and be grateful it's not your right leg, if not you won't be able to press the right pedal.
haha.

ok, since now i can't move about that easily, anyone who wants to visit me has to bring along with him or her a box of van houten Almond Chocolate cause i prefer that chocolate over the rest.=D

haha. anyway, being on crutches will cut down on my expenses cause i can't travel much. and not only that, having to use my arm muscles more, i'll get stronger arms by the time i'm off the crutches. and also, having to hop around on my right leg, i'll get a stronger right leg too.

AND OMG!
i don't have to run for cross country too. =D

haha.
at least i get to play piano and guitar still.
although i can't freaking press the left pedal.

2009-02-03T23:16:00.001+08:00

"I think Bigfoot is blurry, that's the problem. It's not the photographer's fault. Bigfoot is blurry, and that's extra scary to me. There's a large out of focus monster roaming the countryside. Look out, he's fuzzy, let's get out of here"

- Mitch Hedberg

damn, why must i dislocate my ankle now?
but nvm,
i think my arms will get stronger by just carrying myself all day.
haha,
it's a work out man.

HAPPY ORIENTATION PEOPLE!

2009-01-30T22:13:00.000+08:00

there's a sale tomorrow.

2009-01-24T14:37:00.003+08:00

I have to blog this:

2009-01-20T21:28:00.004+08:00

Evil In A Closet - IN FLAMES

We were one in words
you, finish my sentence
I could never attract tomorrow
It pushes, me aside

I sink, in waters deep
You presence kept me floating
Far from depths, where secrets lie
Maybe in another, life time
I could be the first you met

I once read a poem
Held my breath
But the moment's gone
First time i felt, life somewhat hurts
Need a option, a reason and some hope

Yell at me, I want to, be your light that shine
but my ground's shaking, and I might fall
I wish i could say, I wish that I could be your evil, evil in a closet.

2009-01-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

beautiful

2009-01-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

and suddenly i remembered a fact that none of my classmates knew.
HA.

i had asthma when i was young.
=D

like it's something to be proud of...

well, had asthma since P1 and stop exhibiting syndromes of it after P4.
thanks to my mum for keeping away all fury stuff, having a strict no junk food diet,
and keeping the house clean.

and thinking back, maybe having asthma was one of the reason why i was thin at that time.
i mean, having a strict no junk food diet, which means no junk food ( like duh) no chocolate, no soft drinks, other than during CNY ( so pathetic right?) means that i won't be going overweight.
and after P4 when the doctor said that there isn't likely to be any chance of having a relapse of it, i started discovering junk food and ha, you can figure out the rest.

but luckily, my asthma isn't that serious, as in not THAT serious, and not that serious, just slight.
but it's still irritating.
=D

and why am i saying all these things?

2009-01-17T22:08:00.002+08:00

at times like these,
it's more important to know how close we've all come.
who cares how far we've come?
but if it really matters, we've come a long way.
a long and painful way to get separated.

and quoting my friend's msn pm,
( with slight changes)
" I'm here at KFC, having a F a C and a K, i think all that's missing is U"

somewhat ironical right?

2009-01-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

long time since i updated.

busy week.
busy slacking.

haha.

got to get my guitar back from Julian soon,
since my senior wants his guitar back.
ha.

ok.
time for planning.

quite happy that i've stuck with my plan to upgrade my bass first.
estimated cost will be around 300 bucks.
that will put the value of the guitar to be around 400.
and that's still only halfway thru.
to fully upgrade it will cost at most 500 bucks.
so well, i guess i can fully upgrade it after i buy my guitar pedals and bass multi efx.
and my 2nd guitar.

haha long way to go.

why am i always saying this sort of stuff.

so well, back to school.

going to buy a pair of good earphones tmr,
hopefully that will let me enjoy music more.
HA.

2009-01-13T19:52:00.001+08:00

i like synthpop.
of the 70s and 80s.

need a pair of good earphones.

2009-01-09T22:51:00.003+08:00

the only way to move on is to move forward
don't think about what has happened.
if what has happened is really so important,
you won't need to remember it.
it remembers you.

2009-01-07T23:43:00.001+08:00

BLANK.

2009-01-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

ok, finally.
on track.

focused.
some what.

will be back
to normal

someday
somehow

near this day
near this period

ok
bb.

2009-01-05T20:57:00.002+08:00

no milk products for a month.
haiz.
medication for pimples sucks.
it's just antibiotics.
ok.
which means once i stop,
i'll have to restart.
sounds like a game eh?

and hope i don't screw up my vspark survey entry.
really want to do something good.

2009-01-04T03:09:00.003+08:00

80s pop man.

aww.

The Sun Always Shines on TV - A-Ha

Touch me, how can it be
Believe me, the sun always shines on TV
Hold me, close to your heart
Touch me, give all your love to me
To me

I Reached inside myself
And found nothing there
To ease the pressure off
My ever worrying mind
All my powers waste away
I fear the crazed and lonely looks
The mirror's sending me these days

Touch me, how can it be
Believe me, the sun always shines on TV
Hold me, close to your heart
Touch me, give all your love to me

Please don't ask me to defend
The shamefull lowlands
Of the way I'm drifting
Gloomily through time
I reached inside myself today
Thinking there's got to be some way
To keep the troubles distant

Did i mention that they're Norwegian?
not that it makes them special.
but just to let you know that they come from a country
where black metal is one of their country's national export.

and yeah did i mention that this was written in the 1984-1985
the same year where Norwegian's most notorious black metal band
was formed?

why am i telling this?
it's not like it has any relation to the song.
HA

2009-01-04T01:03:00.002+08:00

so apparently,

i decided that guitar multi efx is not for me.

FINALLY.

after a long time of researching.
just go stompbox straight lah,
i mean, honestly, getting a multi efx for the modulation,
not that worth it eh?
i mean, honestly, modulation on guitar?
1 word, gay.

so yeah, just get stompboxes man.
bass multi efx is the way to go man.
so Boss Me50B here i come.
let me see when i'll lay my hands on you.

haha.
and to think about it.
this realization not exactly that great after all eh?

haha.
what ever it is,
it's still changing.

on the other note,
tempest isn't exactly a easy song to play.
neither is it hard.
you just need one thing.
practice, with lots of care.
know what you're practicing.
not the amt of time spent,
but what is gained thru the amt of time spent.

haiz......

2009-01-03T00:00:00.002+08:00

either i'm very fickle minded
or that i'm very in decisive
or i just plainly do not know what i want.

that 3 choices sorts of govern over my life.
HA.

and it's funny how once i started playing a piece,
i stopped listening to the recording.
funny eh?

left shoulder pain.
left elbow pain.
left wrist hurts.
left fingers tired.

kind of true that the left is sinistrous eh?
haha.

2009-01-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

damn,

i think i will have settle for a Korg Ax3000G.
damn.

haha.

Boss ME50B here i come.

stupid dealer don't want to bring in Korg multi efx bass line.
but then again, it's understandable. bass market here so small.

HAHA.

2009-01-01T01:52:00.002+08:00

TOP OF THE WORLD is stuck in my head.
ARGH.

happy new year is like an opinion.
actually just the word happy.
new year is a fact.

now i can say i know you since last year.

2008-12-30T00:15:00.001+08:00

"how does this demon we are protected from look like?" the child asked his mother.

one must surely know evil to condemn evil.
and one MUST surely understand evil to find out what's good.

nothing more.

2008-12-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

stuck between korg ax3000b and boss me50b.
haha.
going to save up for either one of them.

sort of weird, to think about it, that last year, i was so totally against digital efx.
especially multi efx.
cause i find it "terrifying" to programme all the patches and so on.
then i discovered that they're pretty much the same as playing a keyboard.
just that the physical appearance is different.
lawl.
boyung.

well, the multi efx i'm looking for is going to serve as a practice platform for both me bass and me guitar.
helping me experiment with different sounds and so on.
ha.

hope that will help me decide which stomp boxes to buy.
=D.
although i've already decided that the eventide modfactor is definitely going to be on my list.
haha.

my head's up there man.
lawl.

but well, takes things slowly and learn to live your life one day at a time. =D
there's still a long way to go,
and the focus is on piano.
i really need to get my techniques right. =\
i'll attack czerny's opus 299 and hope i can overcome it.
start slow and then slowly accelerate.
somehow i think mr boy said that before.
diao.
boyung.

okok, the plan.
get my bass multi efx. either korg or boss.
then send my bass for upgrade. serious upgrade.
work on my techniques. both piano and guitar.
slowly get stomp boxes. bass has priority over guitar i think/guess/feel/whatever.
finally get another guitar. a 24fretter this time, either cort or schecter.

if i'm not wrong.
this plan does not differ much from my previous plan.
just to make sure, i'll go check. =D

apparently i though " argh, no point explaining so much.
i'm just going to screw the plan some time later anyway.
"
tues 16/12/08

haha.nice one rj.

and then i realised,

i said: "
ok, so prom ended on a high note.
i shall continue with the post prom stuff later."

sun 09/11/08

and apparently there's nothing that explains why i didn't continue.

that's it man,
you should stop making empty promises.
or rather, words of assurance said that the spur of the moment to well, assure others that for the time being, which is at the spur of the moment, everything will be alright.

i need to keep to my word and stop procastinating whatever i do.
u decide your goals and you stick to them.
any and every goal.
do not just stick to the big overall goal or whatever crap.
so now you must change.

I've changed.
I've become a different person
from who i used to be.
and i've changed.
because now that i've changed,
the only road left for me to walk on,
is to continue to change.
because only by changing,
will i be able to return back to who i am.
because what changes,
undergoes full circle,
back to its origin.
and so at this moment,
i beg you not to look at how much i've changed.
but to empower me with the much needed ability,
to continue to change.
change, nothing more than returning to who
you really are.

somehow, we're all living beneath a mask.
we go thru great pains to try to unmask each other's mask.
but little do we know that, beneath the mask, lies another
and the mask, is nothing more, than our own impression.
( kind of like my blog post on tues 21/10/08)

no one changes but ourselves,
and we, by changing, become ourselves.

i've deviated from my original point about needing to change.
or have i not?

i need a plan.
A plan.
singular.
1.
no more than 1.
stick to it.
keep it simple but sufficient.
sufficient enough to cope with changes.

=D

haiz,
next's year's SYF.
big year.
ready or not?
it's not for us to tell.
but all i can say is,
we're hardly there.
we lack many things.
not that i'm putting the ensemble down,
but it's fact, an opinion.
we need a hive mind.
doing everything together.
if we all have the hive mind,
we won't die and we will survive.
cause what are the chances of 1% of the population
doing something "wrong"? when there's 99% of
the population affirm what's right.
and who controls the hive?
no one else but the conductor.
don't doubt the leader.
assure the leader.

why am i blogging?
i've no idea.
and why it has become such a long post?
i've no idea too.

see, every post on my blog seems to be like a simpson episode.
it begans with one "rising action" which leads to another totally different "rising action"
before going on to an even more stupid " rising action"
and afterwards, the rising actions cancel out each other like vectors.

so back to the topic.
korg's multi efx are known for their decent modulation effects,
which is a plus for me.
distortion is not bad, i know, cause i've tried it before.
clean sounds ok too.
so not bad i think.
but the prob, it's not available in singapore.
but you can order thru city music i think. (hopefully)

so boss,
decent, built like a tank.
good circuits.
you can get boss compact pedals sounds from the multi efx.
in the sense that the multi efx is made by combining some boss pedals.
but what's the quality like?
it seems user friendly though.

haiz...
inclined towards korg now,
although i really wish to try out a boss multi efx.
haha.

seems funny that in the end, i'll still be buying a line 6 pod
cause of its amp modelling, and recording.
but hey, everything you own, is ur assert.
just good or bad.
or how good it is.
i think honestly, pedals are mostly good assert.
so long as they don't cause you to stop studying.
and yes, i'll stop using the com after 1am.
slowly, this wk, off the com by 1,
next wk, by 12.
and when school reopen, 11.
and slowly u'll love the piano more than the computer.
or have you already love the piano more?
hard to say.

nice song.

halfway to heaven - Europe

from now,
i'm serious.
but that doesn't mean no joke.
it just mean, joke.
appropriately.

2008-12-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

slept at 5am today
woke up at 9 30am today to rush for the jamming.

tired now.
ok, it's over.
first part.
now's the intermission.

slowly enjoy the few mins of intermission you've before continuing to the second part.
and pray there isn't any encore.
if there is,
give them a big one.
and shut them up.

2008-12-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

very soon it'll be over.
as planned.
what's done in secret has great power.
use it well.

2008-12-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

ok so christmas is over and i received a sling bag.
haha, save me the trouble of asking my sis for hers to find out that she doesn't have 1 ( and asking the same question over and over again)
but that's nt that point.

i injured my leg and now i can't run.
which means i can work, if i want to.
cause my intended job requires me to run blocks.
HAHA.

lol.

i need to fix my bass soon.
hope running blocks will help me earn money.
and get fitter=D
that way i can not only train for napfa but also earn money.

and if i'm fitter, i'll get tired less easily,
which means i can focus more.
which means i can study more.
which logicallys means i can score more decently.

but all this talk won't do anything.
so better call that guy soon.
he told me to call him back on mon.
what a weird answer.

honestly, time goes in 1 direction.
but works both.
it's how u manipulate time that brings benefit to you.
or puts u at a disadvantage.
so for now, i'll slowly wait for the time to come.
wait for the moment,
and when the moment pass, i'll strike.
strike in the shadows,
and then sit back and relax,
while your actions take effect.
effects may vary though.

i figured out there are quite a few ways to prevent yourself from being eaten by another.
omg why so random?
lawl.

1st method,
avoid your predator, run away as far as you can.
do no engage in any activities that relates to it in anyway, anytime, anywhere.

2nd method,
kill your predator, just eat him up when you have the chance.
and show to the other potential predator that you can go hungry anytime, anywhere, anyway.

3rd method, ( which is the one i like best)
make yourself unflavourable to all out there, make sure no one likes the taste of you
and appear like you're of no threat/harm to anyone so that anytime, anywhere, anyway, no one wants to eat you up.

4th method,
help the predator get other food, so that you won't be eaten up.
and make sure there's plenty of food, cause anytime, anywhere, anyway the predator may eat you up.

5th method,
gather the other preys, form a circle of trust to fight the predator.
and keep it up till the predator dies of hunger, so that anytime, anywhere, anyway, there will be no predator.

6th method,
kill yourself, prevent the predator from eating you up.
and then get reborn as another prey, in another society, anytime, anywhere, anyway.

7th method,
poison a prey, sent it to the predator.
let the predator eat the prey and die, that way no more prey can be harmed anywhere, anytime, anyway.

lol, and with this,
i present to you the summary of the book titled " 7 methods to prevent youself from getting eaten" by Ren Jie.

LAWL!
big joke man.
i've no idea why i wrote this in the first place.
spur of the moment i believe.
haha.

2008-12-24T05:09:00.001+08:00

just a reminder here to myself that i'm still awake.

not a good sign.

2008-12-24T03:06:00.002+08:00

family guy.
haiz.
that's the reason why i'm still not asleep.
and why i'm eating supper,
which consist of a hamburger made up of chicken patty, egg, 2 pieces of bread and 2 slices of bacon,
again.
with tea.
damn.
haha.

christmas party tomorrow. ( technically later on)

a christmas party yesterday ( technically 2 days ago)
one of the last class gathering.
sob sobs.
haha.
but there's still class chalet.
sometimes we just need these thoughts to ensure that not all is lost.
and even if it is, the thoughts will still keep us alive.
haha.

and really,
depression stuck me.
well, not like yesterday or the day before or the month before .
but a long time ago.
probably around End of Year papers.
cause that's when i know, IP life is ending man,
you're getting old.
(lol)

but hey,
like everything i do,
i enjoy every bit of it.
it's all about experiencing it.
although i don't like the feeling of it at all.

i'm hungry now.
but well,
the chicken patty is still being cooked.
and i'm here blogging.
experience hunger now.
-_-

and i've been listening to classical music for the past 3 days.
no chance with my MP3.
even so, i'm listening to symphonic stuff like After Forever.
but well, classical stuff is cool
i mean western classical music.

but it's hard to play.
i mean, i don't just want to play it.
like u know? just read the notes and play it.
like u reading a book out loud to another person.
and i don't just want to play with emotions, expressions and feelings and passion.
i don't want to read the book out with the "correct" , or rather, appropriate tone and emphasis, and clarity and pauses.
i want to be able to understand the structure, the whole idea of the piece of music,
i want to be able to identify what chords, what cadence is in play at which particular time of the piece,
just like how you pick out a simile or a metaphor that's in play in a book.

music to me is very much like literature.
although there are differences, but still similar.

ok now back to cooking my supper,
and then more family guy.
lawl

2008-12-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

Have you ever experience times when you know and understand that something is stupid, and that doing it won't do you any good? and you still do it?

well, i've experienced that too many times to say that i'm dumb.

2008-12-20T21:49:00.002+08:00

i was beginning to wonder why my blog wasn't updated.
then it hit me, i'm the one who's supposed to update.

haiz..
EPIC FAIL

but today's performance was un-debate-ably the most EPIC FAIL i've experience.

firstly, we didn't practice before performing.

2ndly, when we went up, we stone for a few secs when the uncle let us use a vintage stratocaster.
we were practically like, " omg omg omg omg this is a vintage strat this is a vintage strat, omg omg omg" the pickups were like literally yellow from aging.
so yeah we stone on stage for a while.

3rdly, there was only 1 guitar amp. which means i have to point the mic at my gutiar while playing so that it could be heard. what a failure.

4thly, while pointing the mic at my guitar, the mic fell down. HALF way thru a song. so oops.

5thly, while playing the first song. we practically died halfway thru cause the chords and the melody are in different keys and that we don't know what we're playing and we can't hear ourselves.

6thly, we decided to screw everything up and play something random. which turns out to be random chords.

last and finally, we're performing to mental patients. not that that itself is a fail, but that if even mental patients don't give a damn about what you're doing. you know ye re doin' it wrong.

what a fail.
HAHA.

2008-12-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

HIGH ON SUGAR.
woah.
interesting.

haaha.

1 sweet
2 double chocolate chip cookie.
1 chocolate chip cookie.
1 subway tandoori chicken foot long sandwich with SWEET onion sauce.
1 large sized coke
1 more sweet
1 soya icy mocha which contains COCOA.
1 bar of chocolate.
1 bar of chocolate.
many chocolate chips.
many chocolate chips
cheese with ADDED EXTRA sugar in it.
somemore chocolate chips.
1 more bar of chocolate.
1 cone of chocolate chip ice cream
1 litre or more of drinks containing SUGAR.
1 piece of cheese/chocolate cake. (it's ambigious)
a lot of chocolate sauce.
2 marshmellow which are HIGH in sugar.
1 piece of chocolate cake.
1 more cup of ice cream.
5 cups of green tea.

woah.
i wonder why i get high on sugar man...

and today is officially EPIC FAIL day.
stupid people.
only know how to copy me.
like wadde hell lah.
i started the fail thing by doing somthing fail.
when i started goign high on sugar lah.
lol.
and everyone started copying me -_-
so i increased the level of fail to EPIC.
and everyone copied. (again)
so i increased it to META. ( which is totally stupid since there wasn't anytime when it was used correctly)
which everyone didn't copy.
so i changed META to MEGA.
and people still don't copy.
cause they love EPIC.
you know? the song by faith no more?
haha.
lol.
dots.
haha.
high.
low.
sugar.
salt.
wdf!?!?

a chain reaction of fail.
a bucket full of failises.

2008-12-16T01:11:00.002+08:00

should i get the

Korg AX3000B, or
Boss ME50B, or
Line 6 Bass Pot XT, or
Zoom G9.2UT?

haha.
going to get meself a bass multi efx asap,
so that i cna do wacky sounds with my bass.
and i just realised that there's no fixed multi efx that's specific for bass/guitar.
so if i have a bass multi efx, i can play both the guitar and the bass using it.

so that means that i don't have to spend so much money for the time being,
to get a guitar multi efx and a bass multi efx.

argh, no point explaining so much.
i'm just going to screw the plan some time later anyway.

but i've decided on one thing.
that is to buy a cheap "lousy" pick up for my bass.
cause i sort of figured out that if u play live,
no one's going to give a damn about how your sound sounds like,
you play the note they hear can liao lah.
lawl.

and i forgot what i wanted to type.
lols.

should be something stupid about buying stuff or something like that.
haha.

i should work.
i can work.
i have to work.
i need to work.
working is for me.
for now at least.
-_-

oh yes i finally remembered.
the most important thing to do now is to get my guitar back.
pray hard that julian doesn't fck it up.
haha.
no offence, but yeah there's a pic of a girl on the guitar so yeah...
( pray he's not reading this)
haha.

and yes, i can tremolo!
oops!
-_-
why is everything i blog about have to be related to music?
oh well, let's continue.

currently i'm learning intermezzo in A major.
nice song, lovely tune.
hard to express although easy for me to understand.
expression has to go beyond what i know for others to understand.
but then again, it might appear fake.
but it's not.
at least for me.
it's such a mellow tune.
how i wish for my own keyboard.
any one will do.
ok no, i need one with good samples.
HAHA.

i'm so demanding,
maybe i should like demand for good results,
so i really will get it.
HAHA.
and my quest to save up for sweelee sale starts today.
=]=]
wish me luck.

off i go.
tomorrow's class outing should be fun.
oh yes, sandesh.
i just realised that my classical guitar,
like gaille's fb( floorball, not facebook) stick is in your room.
as in your hostel room.
HAHA.
ok, it's not ur fault.
return to me when you come back.
and yes, take care.
=]=]

back to music blogging.
i remembered that at this time last year, i wanted to start a album review blog.
so yes, i'll start it.
just haven decide on the blog title yet.
first album on the review list - SYSTEMATIC CHAOS by DREAM THEATER.
ha, no suprise ah?
oh well, it's 1 30am,
guess i better go sleep.
and i'm jobless again.
wait, i mentioned that before already.

oh yes!
i need to email mr chia the info about jolene's party.
does anyone have his email?!!?!
i need it asap.
thanks =]=]
( can't believe i'm doing this on my blog)

haha.
good nites.
dont' fall ah?
take care.=]=]

2008-12-14T03:12:00.002+08:00

if everyone were to succeed, and none should fail.
then by all means, make me fail.
for then I would be the one who succeed.

2008-12-14T01:50:00.002+08:00

i'm officially in love with that song.
going to learn it.
like now.
but wait
it's 2am
haiz...